Kzy Boi

true to myself

2010-04-16T01:00:00.006+08:00

Am I letting my guard down unnecessarily without realizing,
Or am I trying to neglect that option of mine,
Whatever it may be,
Being true to myself is just what I got to do.

Sometimes,
Awkwardness come between this situations,
But it is this little things that make the situations somewhat interesting.

Taking chances has its consequences,
But no matter how risky it may be,
There's only a 50-50 chance that it may turn out your way.

Kzy

happy holidays

2010-02-14T21:59:00.006+08:00

It's been awhile since I've last updated, but the point to note now is I'M BACK BABEY!!

There's things which I've missed and never really got the chance to portray, but words are hard to describe this feeling. Since I've been away, many things have occurred without my presence. Some of which I'll never know really, unless things slowly pops up here and there.

No matter, I know that my feelings were unsettled before I left, but I've been able to understand the things around me much better from my perspective since I've been away.

But anyway enough with the past, what matters now is the present and what's to come in the future. I know I may have changed, but I like the changed in me. It's something new that I've never would discover if not for me being away this long.

To everyone out there, wishing you a Happy CNY and Valentines Day... Enjoy the holidays..

Kzy

only u

2009-11-09T17:31:00.002+08:00

Its been rather long since I last updated my blog, maybe around 2 weeks plus I guess. Sry to those peeps that's been waiting for my update thus far cos was kinda tighted up with work and also other things. But anyway I won't be blogging much today, just that the weather's here is gonna be single digit soon. I hope i'll be able to survive it without being freeze to death.

Guessing only time sets the mood for me these days,

Having only you in my mind just makes me miss all the things that we had,

No matter, I guess I'll just let my emotions guide me through.

I miss my family, I miss my friends but above all I really do miss u.

Silly Boy

Thanks babe!

2009-10-21T02:52:00.001+08:00

Today met up with Rachel at City Hall. She treated me to lunch today as part of her gift before my departure to China for my internship. Before that, we explore around Marina Square before making our way to Orchard Ion where we breeze through shop by shop to see what the new shopping centre has to offer. There were a couple of unnamed stores that may not be familiar in Singapore or to us but we were not entertained by them cos the items sold were way to pricey for us to even went in to take look.

The time spend with her was worthwhile and I kinda need that kind of activity once in awhile to lift my emotions. Not only that, she took random pictures of me with random scenarios which just got her entertained even more than me posing for her, but I don't mind being the centre of attention for her. And after that I went to school for some internship briefing which was utterly a bore.

Babe, thanks for your time and company today. You really make my day a whole lot better with your bubbly attitude of yours that just didn't pause for a moment. I guess I did enjoy myself hanging out with you. It was kinda fun to trick you here and there especially with your blur look when I was actually tricking you all this while. You made me laugh and you complimented me too. That I won't forget. Hope to meet up again when I return to Singapore someway in early February. Thank you again. I hope you won't miss me.. haha..

Silly Boy

Miss you

2009-10-20T01:51:00.001+08:00

I'm neither sad nor I'm happy,
But what I do know is I really do miss you,
I don't wanna lose you cos you're special to me,
I want to take care of you cos its my responsibility,
I want to hug you so that I know you're in safe hands,
I want to be there for you when you need someone to be with,
I want to make you smile each day so that you'll be blessed with happiness,
And I want to love you for who you are.

Missing you always.

Silly Boy

2009-10-19T19:01:00.004+08:00

There's some things that I may not be able to express to you in words cos even without you knowing I'm missing you already. But I guess, I should stay happy and stay positive with each day that comes by.

Words are just barely words when you don't believe in it,
But some words being said do need the attention of belief,
Cos only then can someone expresses their feelings.

Silly Boy

Just a smile away

2009-10-18T00:49:00.007+08:00

Everyone wants a perfect love but my love is imperfect. I don't regret it but I love my imperfectness. There's no point to evade or hide from it cos it makes proper sense to love who you've been all this while then to live a lie. Be who you are and accept those people that's been there for you. Life is full of challenges, no matter, at the end of every struggle, there's prone to be an antidote that may lessen the burden.

My life has always been ever changing and it gets interesting with each challenges that I've encountered. Even though I may have suffered a few drawbacks this couple of months, I still tried my best to cheer myself up by occupying my time with things.

I've never liked my attitude the last few weeks cos not only have I've not been the person that I'm suppose to be, but I've been a heart breaker to some. That's a part of me that I'm not proud of but I can't erase the things that I've done.

But no matter I've slowly amend my ways and I've been feeling better now. The feeling of blues are slowly drifting away making way for a much cheerful feeling. I'm smiling again. WOOoo HOOoo!!! =P

Complications may deceive you and make you break.
But be strong and try to be positive.
Taking time to ponder and smiling away those blues might be an option.
Cos only through those sweet smile can you appreciate what's there to cherish upon.
SO KEEP THAT SMILE ON!!!

I'm just smiling away....

Silly Boy

life

2009-10-16T20:56:00.003+08:00

Life is just like a game.
Either you lose or you win.
Complications here and there just makes life more interesting.

Without it,
Life would be so bold and bore.
Overcoming it may be a challenge,
But it's how you overcome it that brings colors to your life.

Always remember that life is meaningless if you can't appreciate it.

Silly Boy

the story never ends

2009-10-12T02:00:00.001+08:00

Even though every time it feels like the end,
And nothing seemed certain to last,
Random things starts to reveal itself,
Making sure that the story would never ends.
Knowingly, you've always wanted every second of your life to be better than the past.

Silly Boy

Feelings

2009-10-11T13:05:00.001+08:00

Have you ever felt whenever you say a goodbye to someone, you don't feel like letting them go just yet. Guess most of you do when you're in love with someone but I'm not just talking about that. I felt that way each time but no matter it's just a feeling that comes when I'm alone.

There's things in my life which you wouldn't understand and I myself couldn't understand myself. But, I've always manage to express it through my writings. Some are published some may not. No matter, I feel good doing it especially when I'm alone.

I'm please to say that I've been feeling better than the past few weeks and I hope this happy feeling will last.

Maybe all I need is luck to get me by each day,
So that this feeling in me would last every second.

Silly Boy

the other side of my life

2009-10-10T23:15:00.010+08:00

I've never regretted what I've said, but sometimes my actions do bothers me. I know I'm not a perfectionist nor am I someone that's popular, but no matter, I've always wanted what's best for the people that I cared for.

There's another side of me that not many may know of, maybe just those that I've been close with, may know about it. Truthfully, I've always wanted to share this part of me, but not many gals that I've known of, do appreciate it and just misjudge their interpretation about it. I don't blame them, but maybe there's never an opportunity for me to really share my part of the story.

I know this side of me had made someone that I cared for cried, not once but twice. I'm really sorry to make you cry babe, but all that I've shared with you, I hope its meaningful for you. There's never a day that all I ever wanted was for you to smile cos your smile gives a meaning to who you really are.

Anyway, love the people that care for you cos all they ever wanted is what's best for you. Whenever they're not around, you'll start to miss their presence and start to look back on the memories spending time with them. So be sure to love that special people that truly do care and love you for who you are. Much love.

Silly Boy

FREE HUGS

2009-10-07T13:48:00.003+08:00

Spread the love and hugs peeps. Free hugs for everyone.

"Destiny is like building a bridge with the one you love."

Silly Boy

loneliness please go away

2009-10-06T20:57:00.007+08:00

Been away for quite some time, but so far I've been feeling rather alright. At least I'm not feeling too depressed. Just kinda miss someone right now.

Whenever loneliness creeps in during this holidays, I just hope someone could be beside me and make me smile just like how I make people smile. Be there to give me a hug when I really need to or be there for me to share my deepest thoughts.

Anyway, to those peeps that's been feeling rather gloomy this couple of days or weeks, may you overcome this gloomy state and see each day as a blessing for you to recuperate your feelings. Here's a hug from me to those peeps so as to lessen the gloom that they've been feeling.

Even though each day may be a struggle for you,
Never break that smile that you've longed wanted to.

Silly Boy

Thanks

2009-10-02T19:43:00.008+08:00

First and for most, I would like to thank my fellow peeps for being there for me and trying to cheer me up when I was feeling down. Really appreciate it.

Anyway, I won't be back tracking back towards how I felt the other day, but I'll try my best to cheer myself up and smile from now on. I'm sure I'll be able to.

Much love to the peeps that cared for me and been there for me. Spread the love.

Yeah we've had our ups and downs,
But we've always worked them out,
Babe am I ever glad we've got this far now,
Still I'm lying her tonight,
Wishing I was by your side.

Silly Boy

A chance

2009-09-30T22:13:00.002+08:00

A chance or maybe a glimmer of hope, is what Silly Boy really needs right now.

Silly it might have seemed, but lately my character hasn't been much of myself lately. I've not been going out, not be chatting with my peeps, not been feeling right and not been eating much. I don't know why I'm in such a state but I just hope I'll be alright.

No matter, I know crying does help to relieve your emotions but I know crying alone doesn't really solve the situation that I'm in. So, I just got to tell myself that I'll be able to pull through with it and start to be my ordinary self again. Being happy with what I have and enjoy this few holidays to the fullest. I hope I'll be able to. So peeps please do drag me along. I'm in desperate need of going out cos this holidays has been a bore for me.

I know it's not the smartest thing to forget you but we just can't seemed to get it right.
And as far as I've known I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did.
And you didn't mean to love me back.

Anyway whatever happens, I just hope for the best and even though you may not be by my side, I just hope you're be happy enjoying every moment of your life with or without me.

I'm sittin' here tryin' to convince myself,
That you're not the one for me.
But the more I think, the less I believe it,
And the more I want you here with me.

Silly Boy

Love

2009-09-26T12:52:00.002+08:00

Silly Boy been having the snizzles this few days, hope I'll recover.

Been having random feelings this days and nothing has been lifting my mood lately. Feeling rather lonely and this suxs BIG TIME. I know I shouldn't be feeling this way either but nothing's been filling up this void that I'm feeling. There's someone that I've been thinking lately but never thought that I 'll actually fallen for till today but whatever it is I just hope everything's going alright for her.

I have nothing else to prove besides telling her how I feel but I believe she deserves someone better than me.

Someone that takes care of her. Someone that can wipe her tears when she cry. Someone that knows how she feels. Someone that she can be with and depend on. Someone that loves her company. Someone that hugs her whenever or where ever she is. Someone that loves her more than she loves him. Someone that appreciates her for who she is.

At the moment I just don't know what I'm gonna do.. Haizzz...

I'm sorry that I've fallen for you. I'm sorry for everything. I'm sorry.

Silly Boy

2009-09-23T23:06:00.002+08:00

Ignore my previous posting, something came up and it made me feel that way.

Seeing through the path that I have taken thus far, I've began to realize that, even though I might felt unappreciated from what I've done, some of the people that I've been with, did change me one way or another.

Someone once asked me why aren't I'm in a relationship just yet. The answer is as simple as I've not find that someone that love me for who I am truly. I've share a part of who I truly am to only some, cos to me they deserved to know my true self. Anyway, I'm in no rush to be in a relationship and I'll just let time sets its toll until I find my true love once again.

I used to think that no one cared about me or even loved me. Maybe I've been feeling that way cos I just felt the lack of being loved. But just a few days back, someone did made me believe that people do care and love me. No matter, without knowing my eyes starts to get watery.

I meant what I've said about you and keep in mind that no matter I'll be here for you babe.

cuma kenanganmu yang dapat mencantumi hatiku..

Silly Boy

Dependable

2009-09-23T14:52:00.006+08:00

Once known to be dependable by people,
But at long last the journey ends here without much recognition.

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Somehow you wouldn't know what I've been through all this while,
but I guess its best if it were left untold...

Silly Boy

SELAMAT HARI RAYA

2009-09-21T10:21:00.003+08:00

Kepada semua muslimin dan muslimah, selamat menyambut Hari Raya Aidilfitri. Semoga Hari Raya ini merupakan hari yang penuh kesyukuran, kemaafan dan ketenangan di sisi muslim di dunia ini.

Anyway, from my previous post, I wasn't really feeling at the right mood for the festive season maybe just at down side at times, but as the day goes by, my mood slowly increases. To me, Hari Raya is not all about getting green packets or eating the delicacies but it's also about asking for forgiveness from your fellow family members. And that to me is an important part of Hari Raya. Forgiving one another makes someone feel at peace not only to themselves but also to the person that their forgiving. What ever it may be, it is a special sight to see everyone being together and celebrate this auspicious day as a family.

I was kinda surprise to get a text from you on Hari Raya but you did kinda kick start my day of joy for the rest of the day. You made me realize that I should be happy on this special day and I would like to thank you for being there for me. I didn't know you actually read through my blog but anyway I do appreciate having you as a friend and no matter I just hope you'll be alright too even though it'll take awhile. Thanks babe. Love you.

Silly Boy

Shag-ness

2009-09-18T04:00:00.008+08:00

Shag-ness is slowly creeping into my body. This few days have been a rather hectic week for me, not to mention having to do chores around and not having enough rest to compensate all those chores. But whatever it is, it's all in day's job and I'm sure I'll be able to pull through with it.

And here's what I've been doing lately....

Thursday

Basic house chores is what kick start my day after waking up late AGAIN. Been rather tired this days but no matter, I still did my routine workout just to ease that temptation of slackness in me. After breaking fast alone, waited for my parents to reach home which was utterly long before going to my grandparents hse (Mom side) to slack... naahhhh... You wish!! To clean up of coz. Firstly I had to change the curtain in the living room, the kitchen and also my grdma's rm. Next, to change the carpet in the living room plus keeping the place nice and appealing to the eyes. Before long, we left home and I tug in for bed straightaway cos my eyes are killing me....

Friday

Wake up feeling lethargic, mom asked me to accompany her for groceries shopping. So I accompany her and we went home having to take the NTUC trolley back to our hse cos there were just too many things to be carried and 4 hands weren't enough to carry all that groceries. Anyway, right after that there was no rest for me though cos I got to paint my room. Even though I was tired and fasting, I just persevere and started painting away. It was kinda tedious at first, but it flows smoothly as I proceed on. I thought I had my day off for the day but I was wrong again, right after break fast, my parents & I went to my grddad's hse (Dad's side) to clean up and I did the same routine as the day before. Back from grddad's hse, did some decoration outside of the hse before tugging myself to bed...

And that's basically it...

I guess I'm gonna be busy the next few days but I'll update when I'm free. Toodles peeps.
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Being occupied with task just takes my mind of you, but whenever I'm alone I still think of you. All I ever wanted was for the best and it's best that you'll never know cause I don't want to complicate things. Only you know how much I care and love. And I didn't meant it to be this way either. So I just got to let go...

Silly Boy

my empty feeling

2009-09-16T04:10:00.005+08:00

If everything in life were ever to be that simple, everyone would be making the most of life and life wouldn't be as interesting and complicate as it is to be. People around may misjudge a simple time alone being stereotype as 'emo' but the fact is do you even know what the person is going through to be classified them as that. You think about it.

I told myself time and again that as far as I did, I didn't want to have interest in you but no matter how I deny, I still think of you each time. At the moment, all I want is maybe some company so as to take this quiet and empty feeling in my heart. Maybe not being out that often have made me feel this way.

Went out to Marina with Rina yesterday to meet up after such a long time and it did ease my feeling a little even though didn't do much except just chatted here and there. I'm sorry Rina but I hope you enjoy yourself.

Anyway, even though Hari Raya maybe just be a few days away, I just don't feel that excited no more like I used to when I was younger. Maybe as you get older, you tend to see things in a much different perspective. Maybe so maybe not..

All I want is for everything to be what it used to be,
just being blessed with happiness...

Kz Khaz

2009-09-14T22:22:00.011+08:00

Enjoy peeps.

it's been a drag

2009-09-12T15:22:00.001+08:00

Been doing much thinking lately about the things around me. Some are good some aren't. Anyway things relating to you, I've left it behind me and just letting the pieces fill in by itself.

Been out and spending on lots of things lately from shirts, shoes and etc... but I should stop spending those bucks and start saving again. I hope..

In summary this week has been a

SHAGGED & DEJECTED week...

Kz Khaz

2009-09-02T23:58:00.002+08:00

She is Love By Parachute

I've been beaten down,
I've been kicked around,
But she takes it all for me.
And I lost my faith,
In my darkest days,
But she makes me want to believe.

They call her love, love, love, love, love.
They call her love, love, love, love, love.
She is love, and she is all I need.
She's all I need.

Well I had my ways,
They were all in vain,
And she waited patiently.
It was all the same,
All my pride and shame,
And she put me on my feet.

They call her love, love, love, love, love.
They call her love, love, love, love, love.
They call her love, love, love, love, love.
She is love, and she is all I need.

And when that world slows down, dear,
And when those stars burn out, here,
Oh she'll be here.
Yes she'll be here.

They call her love, love, love, love, love.
They call her love, love, love, love, love.
They call her love, love, love, love, love.
She is love, and she is all I need.
She is love, and she is all I need.
She is love, and she is all I need.

Random pixs

2009-09-02T16:18:00.008+08:00

Some random pictures that happen to catch my eyes lately. Enjoy peeps.

there's got to be some nasty stuff down there.. I wonder...

preschool rockz if you get what I mean from that expression..

you'll never know who you're chattin' with... so always be careful... =P

and last but not least....
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Ooopsy.. if dats ever true...

cheerios peeps..

Kz Khaz

emotionally inconsolable

2009-08-31T00:16:00.000+08:00

Someone actually cared more for you.
Someone actually had fallen for you.
Someone actually loved you.
But you didn't realize it.
And now its too late to make amendments.
Cos you've made that someone emotionally inconsolable.

Cheerios & may joy brings smile to everyone...

Kz Khaz

take me away

2009-08-28T17:54:00.008+08:00

Just some songs that just resembles what I feel thus far. Enjoy.

Kz Khaz

much love

2009-08-25T23:28:00.007+08:00

My heart beats for you but you're way to blind to notice it.
There's so much more that I can tell you but time isn't in my way.
So please don't feel bad for me cos I want you to be happy with what you have.
I'll be alright so long as you're alright.

Last night I took one look at you in my mind.
But I would rather let it be the way it is cos I appreciate the thing that we have.
Without a doubt, words can never express how much I've missed you.
Things around you may have change, but no matter I'm still here for you.
Whether it's complicated or not, you could tell me anything and I'll listen.
So I guess I'll go with whatever life takes me to.
And be in the shadows of your limelight.

The truth is I post whatever I feel and if I may be at the downside lately maybe its just that I have things on my mind. But thanks for the concern. Anyway I've not been out lately maybe cos I've been waking up late each day or maybe there's no plans just yet. But its still the holidays for me so lots of quality time to slack for me. Wooo Hooo!!! Anyway to those that still having their exams, study smart and all the best for the papers.

Everyone wants to be love or to be in love this days but love is never an easy issue to get involve with. But whatever it is, love is uniquely special in every way possible. I see love as an opportunity for people to meet, communicate, appreciate love and spending the time with the opposite counterpart. So people do need love in life so that they could appreciate how people care and feel for another.

Anyway no matter how hard complications in life, never give up hope and just believe in yourself and know that there's people out there that do care about how you feel. Much love to those that may be going through tough times and hope everything's going to be fine.

Just smiling back at you with much love...

Kz Khaz

2009-08-20T20:16:00.002+08:00

So people please don't assume someone by the exterior and never judge someone cos no one's perfect and through this imperfection it makes them special in their own ways.

Anyway here's something I've got to express...

If you're alone,
I'll be your shadow.
If you wanna cry,
I'll be your shoulder.
If you wanna hug,
I'll be your pillow.
If you need to be happy,
I'll be your smile.
But anytime you need a friend,
I'll just be me.

So don't worry cos I'll be here for you.
So cheer up cos I know you'll capable of it.
SMILE!!!!

Kz Khaz

Randoming

2009-08-20T19:06:00.005+08:00

Kz Khaz

Picture Perfect

2009-08-18T21:20:00.003+08:00

Picture perfect you might ask, but what's there to be taken when its all never a reality. Everything just isn't what it seems anymore. There's nothing much that can be done except accepting the reality even though deep down, you wish that everything would turned out to be what you dream of.

But no one really knows what I've gone through lately, cos I've kept it all this while without much consideration of what I actual felt. Letting it go isn't much of a help either cos pictures of you just captures in my mind while you're still around.

If only you'll understand, what I've got to share with you all this while. I never had the chance to share how I felt all this while so I've kept some and let go some other without much guidance from anyone. You've make me think of someone wonderful but I can't picture that someone, besides you.

I know I can't be close but I try my best to reach you, whenever or where ever you might be.
Suppose that missing you all this while was the reason for me being this way lately.

Kz Khaz

2009-08-11T23:50:00.000+08:00

I didn't know you waited thus far for me cos all I know of is that you've move on,
You said it yourself that I too need to move on,
So I did move on,
I wanted you to be happy that's why I've drifted further as time passes.

I'm sorry that I've been the cause for you to be hurt .

I mean no ones perfect in this world,
And I know I'm not that superb kinda guy that you've dream to be with,
But I still kept those memories of you in me,
And I just want what's best for you..

Again, I'm sorry....

Kz Khaz

My anonymous heart

2009-08-09T02:43:00.005+08:00

If only time can never erase,
I wouldn't have left you be on your own crying,
Cos I want to be there to hold your hand and wipe those tears away,
So that everything's gonna be alright for you.

To me all the thing she does is beautiful,
Cos its always has been you and nothing more,
Thinking of you each night before going to bed,
Just enhances how much I've been missing you thus far.

Kz Khaz

Whats in me

2009-08-08T23:40:00.001+08:00

Sry readers for not been posting this few days..

Anyway for this week it has all been an or so rough week for me but at the same time, things around me just brightens my mood lately. From random smiles from people that I happen to be unfamiliar with, to anonymous someone that I've made connections to and not forgetting dreaming about you in my dreams, not ONCE but TWICE this week alone. I guess things turn out better than I thought.

Anyway I'm now in JB, supposedly to be some recuperation course for the long weekend but turn out I can't really enjoy much cos I got assignments to complete. How contradicting I am as a Singaporean to be in Malaysia at the eve of my country's independence and be back in Singapore at the closure of its celebrations. Yeap, i'm soo "loyal" to my country... haha.

But anyway, I really do not know what I'm going through right now. I mean if u ask me how i'm feeling, I think I'm ok but what's ok... Happy, Sad, Angry, Dissapointed... I just can't really explained how I feel really. But why all of the sudden, am I dreaming of you. Am I missing you dat dat much till I can't express it to you. I just don noe.

I'm way tooo clueless to say much cos what my heart feels and my mind thinks, are totally crossing paths. Maybe time is what I need to console myself. But whatever it is, I just hope that I won't lose you just like that.

Kz Khaz

what's in my mind lately

2009-07-26T00:59:00.010+08:00

Am I going through a transition. I doubt that I am. But I just can't figure out why am I feeling moody this couple of days. Is it cos I'm getting too stress over projects or maybe some other things which may have affected me. But whatever it is, I've tried to control myself so that I won't burst out just like that. Sometimes I can, but sometimes I don't.

WHAT I NEED NOW IS A BREAK!!! ARGH!!!!

Beneath it all, I guess I do need some care and I appreciate those that has been there for me. Especially that hug the other day some where last week from you, I really appreciate it. And I hope things are getting better for you too.

I must say I really do care about you and i just want to make you smile each time if I'm able to. But as for now I think I should cheer myself up even through tough times that I'm going through. I guess I'll able to pick up the pieces together and be who I am.

I'm just happy that I have you...

Kz Khaz

a piece to remember

2009-07-25T00:00:00.007+08:00

Talk to someone the other day and it made me realize how sucky I've been this couple of weeks.. I mean I regret what I've been but it reflect badly on me.

Anyway I've decided not to hold any grudges on anyone anymore. I mean there's no point of keeping them to myself anyway. The more I keep it to myself the more I feel sad and it just affects my relations with my peeps. So I've decided to erase it all off from my mind. I believe that only by doing so can I be myself again and be happy.

To anyone that I've been rude to or that I've pissed, I'm sorry for my actions lately. I mean I can't undo what I've done but I'm able to append the things that I've done and start a new in the future. Some people say I've change but that's from your viewpoint. But do you even know what I've gone through lately, I mean seriously the whole picture.

Anyway I'm not gonna elaborate further about that, just that I'm sorry for not portraying a much professional attitude about it. I mean, I'm just a human being. And human does make mistakes. I just take this as a learning lesson for myself to grow as a better person.

And to those that's been feeling sad and unwanted lately, hope you'll be able to pick things up and try to see things in a much wider perspective. Don't let one or two hurdles in life keep you down. Try to see things in a much brighter side and only then can you appreciate the true meaning of life.

Life is beautiful if you just give it a chance.
Only then can you know whats your existence in life.
Love Yourself, Love Everyone,
And be happy.

Kz Khaz

2009-07-20T23:21:00.005+08:00

This is what football does to man. Such a lovely couple.
Again its just a football thing...

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People that you love come and go ,
Never had I felt left out before especially like this days,
But you made me realize,
That there's a always a path out there waiting to be look upon.

There's no limitations to how much you care about a person,
Cos if you really care about someone,
You'll do whatever it takes to be happy with them,
And longed to be with their company as much as possible.

Kz Khaz

Randoming post...

2009-07-20T12:13:00.004+08:00

You've been there for me when I need someone to be with,
I feel at ease whenever I'm with you,
Even though you may not be feeling good this few weeks,
You still put up an act to make me feel comfortable and lift my mood each time...

Truth hurts especially when feelings starts to come into the picture,
But whatever it is I prefer to sort out my mind and feelings first,
I don't know what the future may brings,
But all I want now is just to be happy..

No matter what I've done thus far,
I felt unappreciated and nothing seemed to be working,
I just want to have good time from now on with my love ones...

Kz Khaz

My Thoughts

2009-07-18T00:55:00.003+08:00

I just got to blurt out my feelings just for tonight and I won't be thinking bout it anymore...

Fcuk that attitude of yours cos you're just going with what your ego tells you to do.. PLEASE reflect upon yourself before you ever want to judge me.. Don't say to people that I've changed.. And every word and action that you've done thus far are just meaningless... Cos what's there to argue when you're playing with my feelings.. And please change your attitude cos with that attitude of yours, you won't have much happiness in life in the future..

And from now on I don't give a shit about what you think of me cos you don't know who i am..

Kz Khaz

2009-07-06T21:23:00.000+08:00

Its funny to see how a simple expression gives an impression of how you reflect yourself.

If only I knew how I could express myself deeply. Can I be sure that everything's around me will be fine. Nonetheless, there's always a part of me that seemed rather emotionally down. What more could I say then to be assured that everything's going to be alright. But being alright don't solve much disruption of how I'm truly feel. No matter, trouble times seem to come and go and make way for happiness.

What's love to me. Love is universal and with love, can there be recognition between both souls.

I myself have gone through a relationship in the past and I know how it feels to be loved. Loving someone is not a crime and you shouldn't be ashamed about it. What matters most is how both of you come together and share this beautiful experience together. The adrenaline of being part in a relationship has its consequences, but its up to you how you deal with it. And I do believe in true love and everyone has a suitable candidate for their love.

"True love is like the souls recognition of its counterpart to another."

I care about you no matter what and each passing day I just feel something's missing. I don't know how to explain this feeling, but I just don't want to let go the happiness and joy that we share.
Love You.

Kz Khaz

2009-06-29T23:14:00.004+08:00

Looking Back

Taking a step back, looking through the pages of my life, it seemed time is going rather quickly. I've make new friendship through the years, enjoy the moments that I had through many experience and also been through rough patches here and there. As the time is ticking, with each passing day, I just feel I should spend my time wisely this remaining days of this semester. I don't know whether to feel happy or sad cause right after this semester, I'll be embarking my journey to the working life and thus bringing me a step closer to my closure of my studying period in SP.

I guess I'm gonna miss those memories... miss my friends ... n miss u...

All I want now is, hope that the remaining days spend this semester will be fruitful and be a much cheerful ending to my years in SP. I love my time spend in SP , the friends that I've made and also to be who I am now.

If I could turn back time, I just don't want to let go this feeling in me....

Kz Khaz

2009-06-25T00:15:00.005+08:00

An Indescribable Feeling

I just don't know how am I supposed to feel anymore,
There's a part of me that is happy but complications just makes me sad,
Maybe I'm just a solitary figure that just can't be happy,
Who am I kidding.

I know I may not be a perfect guy,
But what can I do,
I'm not a perfectionist,
I'm just a guy that loves to be loved.

No matter what the future maybe,
I just don't want to experience such complications anymore,
Its tough for me to see you in such a state,
But I would rather sacrifice my feelings than making it worst for you.

Kz Khaz

Random Videos

2009-06-20T00:59:00.005+08:00

Some random videos that I found.. ENJOY people!!

Keep your eyes on the baby panda.

Otters holding hands. Awwww how sweet..

Guess thats all for now

Kz Khaz

2009-06-17T21:57:00.006+08:00

Sometimes its hard for me to say the truth but I guess the truth reveals itself when you want it to. I just don't know why am I feeling this awkward feeling. It's just been surrounding me ever since. I know I used to not be myself and pretend all this while to be who I'm not. But who am I faking. In a way, I know I should be myself and I've been showing my true self this past few weeks. And I guess people don't really like the real me.

I'm no perfectionist and I do have feelings myself, but to what extent can I be treated this way. I just feel that people whom I know of, don't really treat me as usual as they use to be. Am I just thinking too much. Maybe so, I just don't know.

I'm neither HAPPY nor SAD nor ANGRY. I'm just lost in my emotions.

Anyway I would like to thank all those that have been there for me. I really appreciate that I'm able to release a part of what I've gone through by sharing to you all. Love you all.

Truth hurts when its being kept to long
But knowing the truth hurts even more

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Baby, I appreciate the time that we had together. I'm sorry if I may be a nuisance at times. You know, each time we meet, you make me feel that there's always a brighter side out there. I know both of us are going through tough times personally but I hope you'll be alright. Maybe time will tell.

Baby I love you.

Living in my memories with you being part of it.

Kz Khaz

2009-06-14T20:22:00.006+08:00

Just feeling bored right now so I just post a random posting...

THE FIVE SECOND RULE

And to all those peeps out there, Don't try this at home...

No babies were harm in this comic..

Kz Khaz

Jus for you <3

2009-06-11T00:47:00.007+08:00

You know I love spending time with you,

You know that I love you,
But today, at least I know a little of how much you love me,

And its true that you're my dear/date/scandal/secret affair/baby/prettyhead/cutiepie/laughing gas/coolest gerl in whole wide world/most understanding one/lovely/ happy/joyful friend!!!!!

And only you know how much I love you...

2009-06-09T22:15:00.002+08:00

Dear,

I don't care what people say or think,
Cos I just want to be with you,
I think of you each time,
I miss you more than how much you miss me,
I love you more than you ever know,
And I love spending time with you,
Love you..

Just a post

2009-06-09T21:27:00.004+08:00

Its really long since I've last blogged, anyway its the HOLIDAYS wooohoooo!!!!!!

Anyway its been a roller coaster ride for me emotionally ever since the start of school but the ending of the school week has somewhat been an uplifting feeling. I like to thank those people that has been there for me through my emotional struggle. I love you all.

Anyway here's what I've got to say...

To those people that I may accidentally give attitude to, I'm sorry to act that way. I know I'm not perfect but I'll learn from my mistakes and be a better person from there on.

I'm not gonna think of what's been bothering me in the past cos I just wanna close that chapter of my life. I want to start a new chapter that's filled with love, happiness, joy, friendship and lots more.
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Anyway its the holidays and I'm feeling bored. I hope I'll be able to go out more often and do lots of stuff so that my holidays are packed with fun and enjoyment. So people please ask me along for outings. hahah...

I miss you each time and love you more than you ever love me,
Just wants to be with you,
Love you dear.

Kz Khaz

2009-06-03T00:14:00.002+08:00

Hurting you was never in my intention,
What's worst than not being able to express it fully,
Breaking down here & there may not be the answer,
But just those tears alone maybe an antidote to working things out,
Maybe so, but hoping that things don't get too complicated.

Kz Khaz

2009-05-31T23:49:00.002+08:00

Dreamy Love

Glimpses of you are in my dreams,
Peacefulness lingers around when you're in my dreams,
Sometimes it's bitter but mostly sweet,
As sweet as your smile each time we meet,
But nonetheless its just a dream

Baby gal I just want you to know,
Even if its only a dream,
I'll always take care of you,
Cherish every moments with you,
And Love you always

My love for you is everlasting,
Nothing depicts the picture that I've seen of you,
You're a masterpiece that's priceless,
Nothing but greatness,
As long as you're the one for me.

Kz Khaz

Learning the facts

2009-05-31T22:54:00.003+08:00

Few days have past and I've learn much from the events that happen during these days. I've seen lots of things and hear some of it but it made me realize the truth. The truth that holds the key to the answer to what I'm feeling upon. Nonetheless, it seems that my heart has settled down and have understand what's being happy is all about. Telling my mind & heart to feel happy is my motive right now but I just couldn't bear the thoughts of even wanting to be feeling upset no more but to those who've been there for me, I love you all for cheering me up each time.

Anyway, things change when you find out things that you shouldn't know, but what the hell, i guess, it's just faith. I'm just praying to God, hopefully I'll be strong to overcome this feelings in me and also my complications in life. Knowing that only you know how I feel deep inside. I'll be strong.

Kz Khaz

2009-05-25T08:25:00.003+08:00

TRUTHS

So long have I been in this state without you knowing,
Thinking to myself what's fact from fiction,
Trying my best to compensate your feelings,
Have I been occupying too much time till I have no time for myself,
Maybe as such till I don't feel it anymore

How am I suppose to deal with it when I'm just clueless,
Do I need to make sacrifices just for the sake of my happiness,
I know I'm indecisive in making choices,
But do feelings matter in my choices,
Maybe I'm just lost in my thoughts

No matter what the outcome may be,
I believe that there's always a righteous path out there for me,
So I'll just be less sad from now on,
And don't let it messed up my mind again,

May the truth be told...

Kz Khaz

2009-05-21T00:21:00.003+08:00

A SMILE JUST FOR YOU

How can one smile such a pleasant smile,
When one is so saddened by sorrows for miles,
How can I smile the same smile,
When life brings me nothing but tears,

I feel happy when I see you smile,
Even when I'm sad and lonely,
Your smile brings me somewhere,
I don't even know where,

But it was you,
You game me the reason to smile,
To smile for no reason,
To smile at your smile,

I learned to smile because of you,
Cos your smile brings happiness when I'm down,
That proves how well and powerful,
A simple pleasant smile can become so beautiful just like you...

Just a smile for you..

Kz Khaz

Clueless Emotions

2009-05-18T12:17:00.000+08:00

There's a part of me that just wants everything to be alright but there are distractions which ruins my desire of happiness. All I want for now is to be happy with everyone that I mingle with. I'm sorry to those people that I've given attitude to or happen to upset you in anyway.

As for the special people in my life, I'm sorry that sometimes I don't have the time to spend time with you all when you really in need of me. If only I could go back in time and actually make time for each and everyone of you all. You know that I care about everyone of you and you have been those people that have kept me motivated in my life. My life wouldn't be the same without you all in my life.

At the moment, I'm in a state of cluelessnees in my emotions. I'm neither happy or sad just basically stagnant. I just don't want to be part of a crossroad where I need to wait just to know about something that has me in the picture. But I guess I'll just wait and see.

I know that you care

I trust your words

But till then I'll just wait....

Kz Khaz

2009-05-16T01:55:00.000+08:00

Gal, please don't cry

Gal,
You're way too beautiful to be upset right now,
The pain that you're going through seems unbearable for you to cope,
Crying each night from all the troubles that you're going through,
Seems to be the thing that's making you confuse,
Its not right for you to sacrifice your tears just like that,

Nothing matters more than you being happy.....

Seeing you cry from a distance,
Makes the scene sober whenever others are with you,
It doesn't matter how much time you need to recover,
But hope you'll be better soon.

Gal, please don cry...

Kz Khaz

Feelin better

2009-05-13T19:30:00.012+08:00

First and for most, I'll like to thank those who have been there for me when I truly need someone to say out my feelings with... I really appreciate it and love you all for keeping my emotions on the high... I'll try my best to be myself and be happy again... I promise...

To Ms Sweetie:
I'm truly sorry for not continuing messaging you last night and keep you waiting for my reply. I was kinda caught up with things and its my fault for not knowing that you weren't feeling alright yesterday. You know that I'll be there for you no matter what. I make a point to make up to you ok. I just hope you'll be feeling alright soon.

Anyway, thinking back to all the incidents that happen last week, I realize I should learn to adapt with things and move on with my life. I shouldn't be feeling depressed all the time but be happy with how things are. At the moment, each day has been enlightening and its great to feel this way. I hope this feeling will last.

Smiling again..

Kz Khaz

2009-05-09T23:34:00.003+08:00

This whole week has been so FCUK up..

Lots of things had happen and it has totally messed up my mind..

**not gonna elaborate what happen**

At the moment, you have totally change my perception of who you really are. You use to be someone that I happen to have feelings with but it has totally changed. You've broke my heart and I'm breaking down just thinking of it. I just don wanna continue crying over you cos' I find that its kinda pointless. I won't neglect u, but I'll just act as if there's nothing wrong between us.

Anyway I'm back from FOR. It was fun even though didn't had much to eat. Mingle around with lots of people. Went night cycling with a bunch of people to Changi Village and back. The WORST part is my butt is still aching. I hope I won't get butt cramps. haha..

But I kinda break down & cried at one point while I was sitting alone by the bench. It suxs to feel this way but shitty things keep cropping up my mind. I'm sry to those people who i happen to give attitude to.. I hope i didnt annoy u.. I'm sry Rina & Corrine for not being my usual self during the night cycle. It wasn't yr fault ok... It was mine.. I'll be alryte...

I think i'll be alryte...
I guess...

Kz Khaz

Jus for u

2009-05-06T21:58:00.004+08:00

With each passing day,
I come to realize how much I miss your presence,
I miss those times that I cared for you each passing day,
With these resistance in me,
I just don't wanna give up hope just yet.

Taking a step forward towards embracing u,
Is all I can think of right now,
And saying those three words to u,
Is just matter of time.
But only time seems to be caught up between us.

Guessing that I've been truthful to myself and nothing matters more than you being happy & smiling each day. I guess I'll just wait and see whether or not do i have a place in your heart.

Kz Khaz

I jus wonder...

2009-05-04T21:18:00.008+08:00

Here's jus a random thought from me..

I just wonder to myself whether am I only just a guy that u happened to cross yr mind. If that's true I guess things just wouldn't be the same anymore. Maybe I just need time to ponder and clear my mental space. Will my feelings for u be temporary or forgotten.. I just don know whether do you even think about me anymore...

I'll let u decide...

I just hope this week will be much better than the last week cos i jus need some spark in my life to keep me going & be my usual self again... i miss those times... Haizz...

Kz Khaz

How it has been...

2009-05-03T16:19:00.004+08:00

Its been pretty long since I last posted but anyway lots of things have happened some are good & some are bad. But I'll just summarized it all.. deres days dat I'm feeling really happy & wanting to be high all the time but lately i just don't noe how i'm feeling...

i dun noe if ms X will ever noe how i feel bout her but at the moment only time will tell i guess.. I been giving her the space dat she needs. I really do care bout her but just that does she even noe that wadever i do is just for her...

n to ms X : pls stop messing with my mind cos if u're nt intersted at least dun jus give me that cold shoulder to me.. u can least tell me the truth, we can still be frens ryte... i'll still be dere for u if u need someone to be with...

n to ms Y : thnks for being dere for me even though i might jus noe u.. u've really made my day each time dat we meet n made my life a whole lot better.. n thnks for waiting for me..haha..

n to ms Z : dun be sooo emo ok... I noe its hard sometimes whenever someone does say things to u.. but to me u do have a nice smile & no one can change my opinion bout it.. so keep smiling ok sweetie... i'll be dere for u too... COOKIE MISSES U!!!

OK i think dats bout it i guess..
toodles..

Kz Khaz

my feelings..

2009-04-17T20:08:00.006+08:00

Its hard for to express how I feel right now but I just don't like the feeling of being lonely at times. Its sucks to feel this way but I just got to be happy and enjoy my life. I stand to believe those people who have been there for me who has encourage me through this years and I'm really fortunate to have them by my side.

I don't know why but this couple of days, I've been seeing lots of my fellow mates feeling depressed or sad. Even though I myself am feeling uncertain about my emotions, but i try my best to be as high and cheerful so as to make my fellow mates cheering again. Maybe its just in me that I'm willing to help others who are in need rather than helping to resolve my own problems. I guess I feel much better helping my friends to be happy again than to be alone reflecting on myself.

I really do not know what i need right now, maybe someone that can encourage me and make me feel better again or someone special in my life..

Talking about love makes me think, why do people want to be in a relationship asap? Is it cause' it's a trend or just barely an experiment for you to try upon. But to me I don't just want a relationship that is not lasting. A relationship is important cause' it touches upon not only your time, but also your emotions & mental. As for me, I know that I've been single for a couple of months but I'm not sure just yet that I'm really ready for another relationship unless my feelings for her is genuine.

I hope that I have some kind of sign or a helping hand to restore my clueless feeling that I've been having this couple of days.

Kz Khaz

back...

2009-04-14T22:38:00.005+08:00

Its been long since I last posted in my blog cos was kinda busy with camps... but I'm back now.. woo hoo..

DMIT FO Camp
i hope dat everyone enjoy the camp esp the freshies..haha.. i enjoyed myself even though didn't had much to do but still had fun esp for disco night where all the djs were superb... esp Dhanish my man...haha... all n all i've enjoyed the camp n also get to noe more frens...

anyway been having an unsure feeling dis couple of days... sometimes i may be happy & high at one time & can be low jus at the other time...i'm jus confused i guess...maybe i'm not yet settled on things jus yet but i'll be alryte ppl..haha...

i think dats all for now

toodles
Kz Khaz

random feelings = P

2009-04-03T15:21:00.028+08:00

With each passing day,
Knowing there's nothing much that i could say,
Only through tears can i dearly express it to you,
But this tears of mine are just priceless,
Its hard for me to let it go,
Though you are one that i truely missed the most

Battling my way through this transition,
Emotions are just some which i can't controlled,
I'm sorry if i wasn't there to pull it through with you,
But i just don't like people to judge me for who i am,
I just want to be myself and be happy again.

I always believe that no matter how complicated things can be, nothing is impossible and there's always a path out there to make it happen. To be frank, i just can't express my feelings well but people who do know me, I know I'm a different person from what I am. So whatever it is, I'm happy to have friends and family who do love me and care about me. Thus to love someone dearly is to love yourself for who you are and be able to live life to fullest.

Kz Khaz

= P

2009-04-03T13:54:00.008+08:00

Back from prep camp..

TIRED & SHAGNESS gettin into me ryte now. but dats life i guess. its really a different feeling den last year when i was a gl an all but trying my best to keep the tempo high at times even though boredness still lingers around me. = P

Anyway GRATS TO ALL THE GLS & GPs for pullin it through dis prep camp together. all the best for the camp and make it a memorable one for the freshies.

Anyway Ethel this is for you...

THANKS HUHHHHHHHHHH!!!! anyway thanks again cos u're really a great daughter to be with. u've encourage me when i'm down n yr presence jus enlighten me each freakin day. n by the way WHERE's my present huh. haha..

Kz Khaz

my firstie post...

2009-03-29T02:31:00.014+08:00

WOOO HOOOO first blog post...

i used to have a blog last time but kinda lazy to update & all but anyway thanks to someone** here i m creating a new blog... happy now...

thanks alot huh my lovely daughter.....
cough*** cough**

BLEAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!

Anyway here's sth for u readers to read... hope its alryte...haha...

A Special Companion

Is it just a bliss between guys n gals
How far will you go to pursue your dreams of being with them
Spending every slightest moments,
Exchanging of views and opinion through your emotions
But are this just companionship
Or an unconditional feeling waiting to be shared with each other

As feelings starts to get closer
Expressing your emotions tends to be much easier with your other half
Without you knowing,
Infatuation starts to get into the picture
Taking a step towards revealing your emotions gets harder each time
Cos you're unsure about the outcome

Covering up your feelings each time
Has now become a game to you
But how long can this game last
Do you have the courage to accept the consequences
Thinking of not wanting to lose you
Has been embezzled in your thoughts

Seeing you each time keeps my mind at ease
But not revealing those three words to you makes me weaker
Saying is easy without any intention being made
But holding to those words and emotions is somewhat i would like to share with you

Loving you always

that's all for now ...

Kz Khaz